Radical

My piano teacher was sure radical. She did not allow me to take exams if I was not ready. Instead of having boring practices and teachings all the time, at times she will play operas and orchestra pieces and show me the score and point out the subtleties. She taught me how to listen to different instruments. She brought me to watch Indian dance and performances to see how movement mixes with music. She taught me the history and background of composers.

When I was gg through all that.... sure did not understand. Got bored sometimes and puzzled mainly. But now I'm so THANKFUL. While editing videos, I'm able to watch out for the subtleties. I'm able to piece movement in video to music. I search for things beyond the surface. Wow. Just thankful. Awesome.

Friends

Went back to celebrate my old church's anniversary today...

Great to meet familliar people who love me, treasure me and are glad that I'm there with them. Just feel very warm. It's really a good feeling. Love them and miss them too.

Longing

Went to watch "The Mermaid" - Ballet Under the Stars.

Awesome. Like lying down on the mat, close to grass, having such a large view of the sky, clouds, moon and stars. Heavenly.

Love dance. Love the movement, the expression, the combination of that with music. Wow. The tenderness. The gracefulness. The strength. The actions that bring out the emotions. The soaring. The beauty. Wow. The stage. The props. The combination of dancers. The splendour. The grandeur.

What moved me was the expression of longing. How the Mermaid portrayed longing for the prince. So vividly. Perhaps its what we go through for relationships, things... but she personified it. She expressed it in such a beautiful way. Its like we have it in our heads. But she expressed it in dance. Longing is beautiful. It aches. But it is part of life. Ebbs and flows. Strings of our soul being pulled. Taut and tense at times. But when released, produce music. Resonance. That's why I love the cello. Can hear the longings through the sound of the cello.

We are made to long for Someone deeper and something deeper. Glad I've found Someone who truly satisfies. The satisfaction this Someone gives, outweighs all other smaller satisfactions. This Someone never fails. This is one fairy tale that truly has a happy ending. Wow. Wish I was in heaven to see this Someone now.

By the way

watched initial D yesterday. Okok... its a teeny gal and ah beng wannabe kinda of show. but heh... I like it. its funny, reminds you of teeny romance where all you wanted was hold hands, kiss and watch a movie together.haha... and it had pretty some nice shots that I liked... and it was happy. Batman begins was good but dark. I think I just needed a happy show. Just like how I prefer white wine esp rieslings over red. Kinda sweet and you know what to expect. No unexpected turns just pure fun. Dun think its boring but I guess once in a while its good to chill... rollercoasters all the time kinda robs sanity. Have also came to enjoy unplanned time. Too much activities etc... kinda robs space... glad to just chill this week... I'm loving it!

For the movie, what really struck me was this... Jay Chou's character was an unassuming hero. It's just very encouraging how that through sucky family situations, he was made resilient, responsible and also gotten really fast at driving. Kinda gave me some solace. Many times I wonder what my sucky family situations are making me out to be. Many times I see the down side to it through my struggles and pain but perhaps one day... I'll be a heroine too. Some way I believe. Perhaps in my struggles to keep the stack of tofus intact, I'm actually being trained to race. Maybe in my version is trying to keep the family sane... Hmm... I wonder what I'm trained to do?? Guess sometimes I'm too planned and too deliberate. Having things come by the way is great!

Ok... for the time being... I'm just trying to play need for speed... I'm improving... getting better at my corners. ha!