Breezy.

I love the wind blowing to my face in the middle of the night. Such a cooling, refreshing, soothing feeling...

It's cool tonight... after a day of rain...

I had a new paradigm on 'rest' today... that it takes more faith to rest than just doing all the time.

Glad for friends... had so much fun just laughing, playing and hanging out.

Yes, it's way past my bedtime... heh...zzzzzzz

Learn and Grow. (This sounds like some kid's school's tagline)

yawn... sleepy...

it has been an interesting week so far. glad to know that there's so much I don't know.

And yeah... I need to learn to be more objective and positive. I can be quite negative, pessimistic and even pretty quick to slap on an opinion and write things/ people off at times. Good point to improve on.

Look forward to learning more tomorrow. This is fun. :)

Adjusting.

So much for normalcy

Woke up really late today and grr... was late for work 10 mins... and missed QT. then felt like i was rushing through the day...

things settled in post meeting... but must discipline to go sleep early. Like now.

Okok... let's not beat myself up... I make mistakes... and I also am adjusting... after this I get a better idea of things... heh.

time to zzzz

Normalcy

Today seems a return to normalcy.

Finally (finally) went for a walk. First one after starting work.

Cooked barley water. Had a good chat with bro about work. Lol.

Really glad to feel more alive and also cleared some of the must-clears on my table. Its been sitting there for a long time.

heh. this is a good feeling.

One day at a time

Gosh - the changes are as expected but now I'm feeling the crunch

The pace is super fast, workload is heavy and feeling physically tired. Just yawned.

There's an excitement yet a tinge of doubt.

There's joy yet some a tinge of fear and restlessness.

Jumping from 50 km/h to 80-120km/h is quite an adjustment.

Also am hunting... hunting for the excitement, push that was once there. Emotionally am trying to push ahead... need life. Felt something had died, had faded away... That I don't even feel like trying anymore...

Thankful for Delirious singing something just for the high 'c's - Every little thing, will just be alright.

I'm sure these things will work out. I have peace, bearing and purpose. For such a time like this. If I 'perish' by having to do more work, I 'perish'. Die to self I suppose. Okies - back to the plough.

breathe....

listening to Norah Jones...

yeah... spent the day just trying to catch my breath...and wondering... had a mtg that seemed all too familiar - agency galore... and interesting to see a similar yet different landscape... thinking about agency life vs client life... thinking about social good vs expertise...

my eyes are closing...

taking care of myself

heh

i like cooking - gives me a sense of satisfaction.

cooked simple beehoon, vege and tofu soup. healthy and nice =) quite a nice change from all the fast food and nonsense food... hahaha...

cooked pasta for the week - gotta start saving on food - super pricey eating at orchard area. heh.

tired.... gg to zzzz soon. happy.

sleeeeeeeeeppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (sleeping for beauty)

tis gonna be a new week.

mmm... slowly making the changes and adjusting.

one marked change is that i'm really pooped. was walking around with half closed eyes today.

eeeks! its almost eleven... okies... bed time soon. no wonder my N sleeps at 1030pm every night. that's about the time to sleep if i wanna wake up at 630am. So far I've been waking up at 7am. Hmm... shall i try 630am tomorrow? Gosh... this is tiring. but good. heee heeee.

cute that on my wish-lists are more online products, more gadgets... heee.... wanna explore more online stuff too...

time to slllleeeeeeeeeppppppp.....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

the key to better skin... (argh... my eczema patches are back... gg to try to rid them this week...)...

早睡早起

Hmm... I'm beginning to like this early morning things... by the time it was 11ish 12 last night... my eyes were closing...

woke up this morning... felt tired yet slightly fresh. happy to just take the car and drop off something and went to Ikea to have breakfast and do some work. *happy*. Didn't scratch anybody's car... didn't get lost... and didn't need any maps (ok, streetdirectory.com.sg was down). Heh. Feel happy. Might be small to many people, but to me, its a big deal. Mobility and overcoming fears and mistakes.

I like the early morning feel... feel fresher and more productive. Heh. Think I'll stick to this rhythm... *big grin*

Feel glad that my breathing and stamina is better too. Yest went for a lovely tan and swim (just made me feel that I got out of the country)... (loved just resting under the sun - super feel good feeling).. and really glad that I could swim continuously without getting out of breath (those gym cycles are doing me some good)... and my nose actually feels clearer (Yes! been praying for that... and also wanna dive one day!!!)

Hee. 早睡早起身体好！

Trust-I-N-G

gosh. I slept at 9pm last night. Record. Woke up at 6am. Record.

Just super duper tired - had a packed weekend + late Sun & Mon nights. Still slightly sleepy but better.

my body is still adjusting to all these changes... finding an equilibrium point etc.

need to focus. focus. focus. FOCUS.

So far, so fun. Focus on simple things, simple truths. Trusting everything else will be taken care of.