stir it up in our hearts

i'm so heady tonight.

just amazed. the dream is alive. and never will fade. The compelling love. The mercy. The love. The zeal. The passion. Of the one who Never gives up. Of the one who always reaches out.

so many things that stir my heart, stir the depths of me... a passion that is refined. a passion that is consistent. a passion that is intact despite and inspite of. Recently, I have been feeling fire in my bones. New zeal. New love for the things I believed in. For the pain, disappointments I had, hope is in place of that.

seeing young people arise and go forth to bless many people, to love the peoples of the world. what an excitement.

to see what I've sown in tears, now to reap in joy.

to choose to trust. to choose to be content. to choose to live to my destiny.

just to be in the company of people i love.

Fresh fire in my bones.

Sunset.

Give.

these few days are really trying.

thought the good days are here after a few crazy weeks... i was actually feeling happy. then another situation crops up. sigh. guess it's not our right to feel happy. But at least there is joy.

woke up at 630am today. actually went for breakfast and shopped for groceries. Went back to eat my fav century egg and chix porridge. Yum. Sometimes the familliar is comforting. glad to just chill out and read... key thought of the day - unity & diversity for creativity to flourish. hmm... ntuc @ kiliney is really good - cheaper herbs & fresh produce. Could get my party budget under $30. great! found a great gadget - an ice cube tray that has a cover - all you have to do is to pour the water through an opening - brilliant!

word for the day - bless. really had to choose to. maybe spiderman feels the same way. when he doesn't feel like saving the day, he still goes because his life is not his own. yeah. in a crappy mood, entirely not in mood to cook for party tonight. room & house still not totally packed. demands from parents. sigh. BUT BLESS. GIVE.

glad to get my room & house in some decent state. and also get to try real cool recipes! Made my own ice lemon mint tea (save money), garlic mayo, chilli tuna, chix wings and cheese fondue (almost, need to find a proper fondue set!). Oh yes, and some last minute prawn thing. Ha. Fun. Glad the peeps enjoyed it. ha. Fun to watch soccer together. Though I don't watch much, but its always fun to watch together. The engergy and excitement. Blah, too mad Man U lost - could feel the disappointmenta and sadness. Heh. Boys and their soccer.

I think i'll crash tom. Or monday. Ha. Run Run Run! I want to run! I ran on Friday!!! Need to calibrate my Nike Plus set.

Really hope things get better soon. Glad for the peeps who came over - sure lightened up the situation and day. Sigh, if not I'll be feeling more miserable. Families - how important that the atmosphere is loving, fun and safe. So people WANT to come home. Not escape. Maybe that's why I love travelling - somewhere far far away... meanwhile... I'll travel in my dreams...

Run Jael Run!!

i did another light jog today. grin. cooked a yummy salsa fish today. Happy with my foodz. Heh. Makes a difference when I have new inspiration, thanks to Ami's magazines - Real Simple. Awesome. Love those mags. Think I'm a mag junkie. Anyway...

Touched Touched. Bosses bought me a ipod nano running kit - even threw in the sensor clip and armband too. Adds to my running.

Glad I'm finally doing something more for my health... ... Run Jael Run! And every bit of weights I lift helps with better bone density!!!

Step by step...

Run Moi Run!

I am so proud of myself.

Went for a short jog/walk around my neighbourhood. 1st time. Ok, ok, cut me some slack would ya? Thought I'd test water and not kill myself. Grin.

The place is awesome - nice green trees, fresh air (almost) and good road tracks. Wah! no wonder so many people jogged. I feel healthy. I reached home at 7! I should do this more.

humbled. Thankful. My bosses gave me the NIKE PLUS SET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The arm band, the sensor and the device that clips to the shoe lace. WAH!!!!!! What a blessing. Aiming to run on wed. =)

Am in this financial planning phase. Feel grown up. Feel I have to get the courage to face up to things. And thinking deeply about purpose.

Sleepy.

be strong and courageous - turning 30

i hear words spoken to Joshua ringing in the air - be strong and courageous

this year so far, is a sobering one. i'm awakening to the fact that I'm going to be 30. That forces me to sit up, think and act. It's like having to cross a new huge threshhold.

really want this book - 29 things you should know before turning 30. Read an excerpt from Relevant Magazine - 9 things. And yes, it is been helpful, the least.

Am facing up to money - the cultural representation, the personal ambition and the practical things: budgeting, insurance, investments; in short, Financial planning. Am facing up to time - how much of it is spent appropriately? Am facing up to health - how to keep my present weight and lose it... how to combat declining bone density and lower metabolic rates. These issues were floating around throughout my 20s but never had it stand up and demand such attention except for now.

Maybe its my decision to follow God and His path. Maybe its my choice of wanting to have a good work-life balance. Maybe its my visit to the doctor. Maybe its my tighter jeans. Maybe its everything.

How do I balance duty and desire? I'm going to find out...